giving up

You just decided to go anorexic? Please be careful, anorexia isnt a decision you make, its something inflicted upon you and its DEVISTATING.

Hey there,

I am so sorry you feel awful! I can totally relate to how you are feeling, sending you a cyber hug :)

I don't want to slag off your girlfriend, but if she doesn't find you attractive that is her problem. You look nice to me in your display picture thing! Also, I have to agree with Lilac, do you really want anorexia? If she doesn't find you attractive now, becoming a walking skeleton will unlikely make you more attractive to her. It will also make you feel so dead on the inside :(

Have you tried speaking to her? I know that's a pathetic thing to say, just wish I could help more :/ Explain to her how you are feeling, how you love her but feel lost. If she cares for you she will listen.

I had a boyfriend and it sounded just like this...I can promise you it can get better!
Hope I helped a little bit,
good luck for 2011
Oof/Ruth xx

Remember, if you give up today, you won't get to know what tomorrow is like. It could be AWESOME. - We all have these days, but please don't go anorexic. It is another black hole waiting to suck you in. I'll say a prayer for you...

i know the hanging on, yet wanting to give up part. it feels like hell, this constant back and forth of emotions.

like gina said, you dont just go anorexic, it's another trap you fall into and cant seem to get out of.
but what do you think it would change? how could this possibly improve your relationship? if anything, it will destroy it!

xxxx

Oh Kafween, I feel so much for you. Abby is tearing you up girl. I know how much you love her, try not to let her negativity get in the way of loving you for who you are. You are perfect in your own right. Don't give up now, we're in this together. I wish I could be there for you and comfort you and tell you it's alright because no matter what you are important. Please don't self harm, you mean so much to do that to yourself. You know I'm here for you girl, don't let go of that hope. You don't have to give up on Abbey, just try to talk with her and tell her, let her in on your feelings and maybe she will understand. She's stuck with you for this long i'm sure she cares about you, no doubt. Maybe she's scared you will hurt yourself or maybe she just dosen't understand what you are going through. Give it some time love, all will be as it should and you mean so very much to so many people. I feel like you are a true fighter and you and i can get through this. Don't forget you can message me anytime sweetie. I'm here when you are down.

much love to you sweetie
soulkiss

Kafween,

I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time right now... I understand the urge to self-destruct, but that really won't make your situation any better; it'll only make you feel worse. I agree with the others... Anorexia is not something that a person chooses... It's terrible and deadly; it has the highest mortality rate of all mental illnesses, and having it is a living hell. The anorexia site is a pro-recovery site, so please be careful with your posts there... Lots of people on the site are looking for help and support in their recovery efforts, and if we can offer you the same, we'd be glad to do so. ♥

Thinking of you,

Jen

Kafween
If I could word a journal entry as good as you did I would have written almost the same thing with similiar situation of a friend of mine. My heart goes out to you and my thoughts are with you as you fight another day, tomorrow can bring you the best thing you have ever experienced. You won't know until you get up to see tomorrow. Do just that get up and fight you are so worth it!

You know the saying " The more there is, the better." Think about it. Don't strarve yourself. And If she was worth everything and it was supposed to work out it would have. We all have bumps that we come across. We are supposed to do our very best to get over them carefully and starving yourself won't change her mind. There is someone out there that will be worth everything. And God made us all beautiful in our own ways. We just have to find that in ourselves. Don't give up. Please. I have terrible anxiety and I am trying to make the best out of it. So can you, just believe my friend.

You can't give up. You shouldn't let what other people say affect you. I have dated several different weight class girls. I think you look beautiful the way you are. You have to be happy with yourself. You are a strong, beautiful young woman. You need to find the courage in yourself to understand that. Their are so many people not as attractive as you are. I learned a long time. You have to be happy with yourself and not care what others think.

Try talking to yourself in mirror. I know it may sound silly. But more you get used to looking at yourself, more comfortable in your skin you become. Don't let the TV add's fool you. Skinny doesn't equal happyness.

take the time to figure out what you want to do:/